it is queer even sad that last night i dreamt of that beautiful day long long ago and now i'm listening to this kid speak with such hunger, pride and desire.i felt a burning hole in my heart, an emptiness in the abyss of my soul. i know in life you try not to look back, no matter what. but whenever the bout of melancholy hits me i just wish i could be 18 again. 3 yrs on too much has changed. too much. sic transit gloria mundi