what F stands for

it felt like direct blows to my dignity and pride, tearing down the lofty impression i had. the grade read F. F for fail; fucked up; flunk; wait... and also fluke. when you're in the shit and you know it, its a good thing. at least you know you're screwed, try to work it out from there. Because of Euro2004 and all its fucking upsets, I am now in the shit because i happily forgot that such horrible events such as common tests existed, wallowing in the stench of failure. i've had enough of groaning and muttering in defeat like the way they do, actually i never have, i just never bothered, with a big "ah fuck man, fail again. nabei jibai." i'll just walk away from the problem. only to return to it again next time. now, there won't be anymore "again". there aren't too many more next times left. if you sink your head down while you're in the shit, you just keep sinking deeper into it. i'm holding my head up high and i am going to climb out of this hell hole alive and reveling in my achievements. next time it'll be different. next time it'll be me sticking 2 fingers in the air., exclaiming, "i got A! i'm fucking smart!" Cause i am smart. and i'm going to fucking show you. .... that i'm smarter than you.