Thursday, August 19, 2004

dreamland protected by stonewalls

We’ve been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for number one
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Hustlers grab your guns
Your shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California (California...) o, Cala...
On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothings gonna stop me now
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Pedal to the floor
Thinking of the roar
Gotta get us to the show
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California (California...)(repeat to end)

~Phantom PLanet.

after hearing some stuff, i really gotta admit, life's pretty much fucked up. wish there was a nicer way to put it. but there really ain't. bad things happen to good people while the rest of the world: bad and ambivalent stand aside as neutral observers, often unwilling and unable to make things better. sometimes don't you feel that you're one of those people? i do. but i don't know what to say or what to do, caught up in my own small life, inconsequential and insignificant but for the people around me.pretty much like Paul Pennyfeather from Decline and Fall in some way. we blind ourselves to the pain and suffering that is in this world because that is the only thing we can do to remind us that life ain't all that bad. maybe that was part of the modernism Waugh was critical about. the ludicriousness of life is often lost on the lot of us, trying to impose an order on this unexplainable chaos. drifting into this fortress we attempt to build for ourselves, this castle where our friends and family live, and the dark and evil creatures lurk outside and beyond our battlements. what happens when the evil creature known as reality breaches our walls bringing to us all the ills of this world. what do we do then? stand aside and let the flood sweep us by? alas, my primitive mental faculties have no answer to that question i pose to myself. the heart tells me to stand up against it, but the mind says that it is impossible. I don't know where this post is going and i shall write no more.

on a happier note, Panda aka "Lai Liao" - Zhaoxiang the PRC who went to Wales,and now only speaks the Queen's good english, made it to Cambridge today. another zai kia.

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