Happy New Year - maybe not? maybe yes.

over the next few months, life will be tough. i'll bleed, i'll sweat but i will not cry and i will not drop out. ask yourself what do you want out of the whole experience. what you're going to tell people when they ask you what you did. is it going to be a meek "i was a pussy" or a proud "i kicked some fucking ass" ?
if you wanted to be a pussy you should have just went AWOL to Canada and fucked off instead of wasting two long years of your life.

i'm going in. i'm not going to mop about and complain about all the things i could do instead of going to the army. i'll serve the nation to the fullest and fulfill my debt of honor and duty over the next 2 years, to earn my citizenship and the right to leave and be able to return. i'll chiong my guts out, lay it all on the line, no holding back. at the very least i'll get the returns of a hot bod ready to sizzle on Kuta when i'm released. no matter what i'm not quitting and i'm not going to indulge in self pity. no one can bleed me dry apart from myself.

got a few loose ends to tie up before i'm ready. over the next few days i'll get them done. then, i'll be ready to commit to serving the nation since i won't get to do it ever again after that when i'm living abroad.