Gin Tonic

a potent mixture when drank without any lemon. so when is someone considered to be drunk? when he can still remember all the bullshit that spews forth or when he can't remember anything at all? the crying over the phone when i called my parents, nikhil pulling the phone away from me, the puking in the toilet, sitting in the bath tub, calling jasmeet to bring me a towel, wearing a winter jacket to sleep because i was freezing - i don't think its a night we're going to forget in a long while. somehow though i was raving, i'm still able to recall bits of what i said over the phone. stuff like how i'm going to buy her the farm in sunshine valley, pay for my sister's high school n uni education in e states. then again there a lot of negative shit too, i said most of that to my pa before they took the phone from me. benny and nikhil went out while alex, jasmeet n i were stoned out in the apartment.

i doubt i'll ever drink like that again in the next couple of years. after last night, you could say that i've changed. life is no longer about having fun anymore. in fact, it has taken on a very serious tone. its very much like a game. to win you've got to be absolutely focused, disciplined and serious, you've gotta have buddies whom you can rely on, but at the same time you've got to love it. this ain't just bout NS, its the whole big picture for years to come.

booking in on monday back at tekong with all the other fellow sispec warriors. come what may. i'll meet it with all the grit i can muster. fight for my pride and hopefully another chance.