6 rewrites and i still can't get it right.

getting you a present for Christmas - same question: does it matter at all?

filling the days till the New Year with happy things to do.

wrapping up university applications

Mambo with ming, cheech, da and everyone else.

Wala Wala chill out with Alex the Unexpected groupie

catch Chronicles of Narnia

MOS with the boys on NYE

then its 2006 and time to be a hardcore rugby player for 10 months.

by then you'll either be in or i'll have written you out

life's full of its unanswered questions - what if? should have? could have? maybe? - and a whole closet of regrets to contend with. all of which doesn't matter.

and then you asked me.

does it really not matter? or do you just want it to not matter?

you hold the answer so don't ask me.

the song that's top of my playlist this festive season.
Aerosmith - Cryin
There was a time
When I was so broken hearted
Love wasn’t much of a friend of mine
The tables have turned, yeah
’cause me and them ways have parted
That kind of love was the killin’ kind
Now listen
All I want is someone I can’t resist
I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed

I was cryin’ when I met you
Now I’m tryin’ to forget you
Love is sweet misery
I was cryin’ just to get you
Now I’m dyin’ cause I let you
Do what you do - down on me

Now there’s not even breathin’ room
Between pleasure and pain
Yeah you cry when we’re makin’ love
Must be one and the same

It’s down on me
Yeah I got to tell you one thing
It’s been on my mind
Girl I gotta say
We’re partners in crime
You got that certain something
What you give to me
Takes my breath away
Now the word out on the street
Is the devil’s in your kiss
If our love goes up in flames
It’s a fire I can’t resist

I was cryin’ when I met you
Now I’m tryin’ to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin’ just to get you
Now I’m dyin’ cause I let you
Do what you do to me

’cause what you got inside
Ain’t where your love should stay
Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain’t love
If you give your heart away

I was cryin’ when I met you
Now I’m tryin’ to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin’ just to get you
Now I’m dyin’ just to let you
Do what you do what you do down to me,
Baby, baby, baby

I was cryin’ when I met you
Now I’m tryin’ to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin’ when I met you
Now I’m dyin’ cause I let you
Do what you do down to , down to, down to, down to
I was cryin’ when I met you
Now I’m dyin’ to forget you
Your love is sweet
I was cryin’ when I met you
(fade)