and after shutting myself up at home over the weekend i have had no new epiphanies or damascene moments to speak of - except this: i will be happy in life if i am a decent rugby player, surfer, investment banker and happily married - which doesn't count as much of an epiphany.

of which i am only close to achieving one of the above goals and far from achieving the other three.

i want to go to college because i don't have enough cash to enjoy this life i currently have.