R&R - Reflection & Ranting
1) feels different, no pride and no desire.
2) denigrating for my self esteem
3) don't belong there
4) need to focus on studying
5) future that is at stake here is possibly worth millions
so i have come to the conclusion that i should quit rather than risk the chance of missing out on a place in upenn, or new york or UNC.
on the flip side, despite getting trounced by a bloody touring school from the UK which is just disgusting for a national youth squad, i have an insight into why they're so much better than us. simple reason is because their education system allows it. in Western countries there isn't this immense academic drive, people are allowed to development the way they want to. yes that means that there will be failures, but there will also be many more successes. People who can play sports, do drama, play music, be intellectual - basically do everything. education is all rounded. no one ever has to worry about fighting for the immensely small number of scholarships, universities and the federal government provides financial aid for those interested in and have the credentials to go to college.
Mr Mc. talked about public school ethos somewhat today. He mentioned Rugby as a game that is a big part of the public school system, because it builds character - the kind needed to create servants of the Empire. Tough and rough both physical and mentally but yet at the same time understanding that 'going it alone' never works and you will always need a close knit team to depend on. now that the Empire is defunct, the same ethos which i believe i have been exposed to in RJ humanities n rugby is used to produce the leaders of tomorrow. i have changed much over the course of playing REAL rugby in the past 2 years and taking great pride in the Rafflesian code of arms whenever i bear it on the rugby field. playing rugby with that incredible team, they rank as the best or 2nd best ( the J3s were damn gd too) team i have ever played with in all meanings of the word. there were the most important aspects, pride and passion. the national team is different. today i didn't even feel like playing, i take no pride in the flag, in the national anthem, let alone SRU logo, and i can't wait for the day for me to go to college in the States and not come back for many years. i'm not pass my sell-by date, i just lack pride in those "prestigious" national colours, even having some contempt, and i'm not going to pass up a chance to leave. if i want to get physical, there's always 2 years of army ahead of me. i've made up my mind. there isn't going to be anymore deliberation.
2) denigrating for my self esteem
3) don't belong there
4) need to focus on studying
5) future that is at stake here is possibly worth millions
so i have come to the conclusion that i should quit rather than risk the chance of missing out on a place in upenn, or new york or UNC.
on the flip side, despite getting trounced by a bloody touring school from the UK which is just disgusting for a national youth squad, i have an insight into why they're so much better than us. simple reason is because their education system allows it. in Western countries there isn't this immense academic drive, people are allowed to development the way they want to. yes that means that there will be failures, but there will also be many more successes. People who can play sports, do drama, play music, be intellectual - basically do everything. education is all rounded. no one ever has to worry about fighting for the immensely small number of scholarships, universities and the federal government provides financial aid for those interested in and have the credentials to go to college.
Mr Mc. talked about public school ethos somewhat today. He mentioned Rugby as a game that is a big part of the public school system, because it builds character - the kind needed to create servants of the Empire. Tough and rough both physical and mentally but yet at the same time understanding that 'going it alone' never works and you will always need a close knit team to depend on. now that the Empire is defunct, the same ethos which i believe i have been exposed to in RJ humanities n rugby is used to produce the leaders of tomorrow. i have changed much over the course of playing REAL rugby in the past 2 years and taking great pride in the Rafflesian code of arms whenever i bear it on the rugby field. playing rugby with that incredible team, they rank as the best or 2nd best ( the J3s were damn gd too) team i have ever played with in all meanings of the word. there were the most important aspects, pride and passion. the national team is different. today i didn't even feel like playing, i take no pride in the flag, in the national anthem, let alone SRU logo, and i can't wait for the day for me to go to college in the States and not come back for many years. i'm not pass my sell-by date, i just lack pride in those "prestigious" national colours, even having some contempt, and i'm not going to pass up a chance to leave. if i want to get physical, there's always 2 years of army ahead of me. i've made up my mind. there isn't going to be anymore deliberation.
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