the cure?

panacea. addiction. these are the only 2 words i can use to describe this game. i'm supposed to be retired, a relic of the past. that's what i've been telling everyone, frm darius to firas to james. but after 1 week of moping, lookin for answers and not finding them, 60 minutes of rugby makes me feel that i don't need to find the answers anymore. for that 60 minutes, you don't matter. like i used to say, this is my escape, the hole i go to hide from you, who i can't talk to. somehow now i need it more than ever.damnit i gotta weed myself off this addiction.