Music

recently discovered the beauty of electronica, namely Frou Frou and Imogen Heap. Heap's songs are commonly found on The OC. such as goodnight and go, hide and seek and speeding cars. speaking of OC i want season 3. but it seems the haunting effect that i love has a depressing feel to it. the deep meaningful and not to mention sad lyrics don't help either.

days of splitting headaches

all part and parcel of qigong treatment that is starting to yield visible results.

thankfully the friends came in force over the weekend

for those returning to the UK take care, esp. yeemeng i don't want to hear about you being an anti-social dota freak at warwick.

for zach n jon enjoy taiwan. haha

thanks ter, siva, raihan, renji, sx for prata and original ahpek chia for famous me goreng

now to the main pt..

i would like to thank APFC for the no. 3 jersey. i hope to play well for the club when i recover from my life changing injury. i know my soccer skills are fucking lousy but i am here to learn from the greats at APFC. hopefully my angst will be able to add something to the club. thank you.

chronicles of dom and timo

yesterday morning i woke up to an sms that read..

omg. i just saw timo he's fugly. he looks like a pig n he's wearing a hairband.

that evening on msn...

he raised his shades and went "hey dom what's going on man?"

this morning another sms...

noooo i just saw fugly timo again. i'm cursed.

times have changed. due to the negative influences i have exerted on dom over the years he's no longer a nice guy who respects his elders. does winning the Police Cup mean we have the right to jack timo the way yeowkuan n tziyang do or kick his ass at touch vis-a-vis last year? i dunno. ask dom or sherman.

on another note i need volunteers to help me lengthen my palmaris longus and flexor digitorium, and to flex my interphalengial joints. at this point gillian deserves special mention. it is NOT latin for dick dear birdbrain they are tendons in the hand. benedict - binny -lim you don't need to volunteer for you its compulsory. [even my mother calls you binny.]

and happy birthday terence.

it seems i've turned the corner since qigong started, can feel improvements internallly but not see it. frustration and impatience are the devil's temptations now, and at times i slip into it. i need to work harder, strength courage resilience where art thou for heaven's sake. i promised to be up by the end of hte year but there's only 3 mths to go. i promised cheech n wy we'll make it for christmas in the big apple, new year's at times sq..but i'm still here..summer's gone but i'm still here. fuck fuck fuck i'm gonna try and sit up right now without anyone's help.

memoir excerpt

...and i remember clearly the day we were beaten by pioneer at the old Saints ground. i ripped off my jersey and flung it in front of tay together with insults to his coaching and character. as i cried in frustration and a desire to be a winner instead of a loser in front of the church still smelling from the game i was certain i would never play in chinese high or hwachong colours ever again. terence was the one who eventually made me walk back, only to hear mikail speak of how we were going to beat RI and Barker. now i respect mikail as a friend and organizer but he is not in the league of any of the captains i later played under and i knew that he was speaking unrealistically. having called the rafflesians my family and played with the barker boys at u19 and the club i know that for certain....since then i played against tay's teams twice for scc and beating them by cricket scores on both occasions has rarely been more satisfying....


weird dream last night of people i haven't seen in the longest time promeniently kylash, my pri sch pal ash, jason and alroy whom i don't even know well. and for the second time it ended with me copying dom's answers in an exam which has never and will never happen. wtf

watching Godfather has taught me much. morality and justice is never black and white. i aspire to be Don and stand Godfather to those who have done me good.

"What have I ever done to make you treat me so disrespectfully? If you'd come to me in friendship, then this scum that ruined your daughter would be suffering this very day. And if by chance an honest man like yourself should make enemies, then they would become my enemies. And then they would fear you. someday - and that day may never come - I'll call upon you to do a service for me. But until that day, accept this justice as gift on my daughter's wedding day. "



"Because a man that doesn't spend time with his family can never be a real man"

O say, can you see, by the dawn's early light,
What so proudly we hailed at the twilight's last gleaming?
Whose broad stripes and bright stars, through the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watched, were so gallantly streaming!
And the rockets' red glare, the bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof through the night that our flag was still there:
O say, does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave?

Oh! thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand
Between their loved homes and the war's desolation,
Blest with vict'ry and peace, may the Heav'n - rescued land
Praise the Pow'r that hath made and preserved us a nation.
Then conquer we must, for our cause is just,
And this be our motto--"In God is our trust."
And the star-spangled banner in triumph doth wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave.

by francis scott key

wisdom and caution - the children of error - are the only gifts of time till dementia arrives. many say love like you've never been hurt before. but any being would find it hard to do so hence the saying once bitten twice shy. i just wish i can live like i've never been hurt before.

the flag still flies proudly as the battle rages on.

there are many things in life you might not believe in but they do exist - like God, saints, the Force just like in star wars and kungfu novels, karma, fate and destiny. Science? physics mathematics chemistry i believe in. biology - i have completely lost faith in. in 8 months i have lived a hundred years. older wiser mature - when i get up would i feel 20 or 120 i really wonder. once the nightmare ends, the dreams begin. life i've seen it all...