submission to thy Queen.

http://sporeunderground.blogspot.com's response to the whole wee shu min scandal has got me thinking about an age old issue; scholarships and who its going to. now, plenty of my friends are scholarship holders - while some are taking it so that they can experience an overseas education that their parents cannot otherwise afford them others just want to be dedicated civil servants.

while wee shu min isn't yet a scholarship holder and probably won't be now, there are many in her mould that they have funded and will fund in the future - those born and breed not merely in relative comfort but absolute luxury who go to the best schools and gifted program etc. my friend pointed out that they are scholars because they are deserving having proven their academic capabilities, and whether they are able to afford an American or British education is irrelevant because we need them - actually he said 'they -the people- need us' - to run the country. however i would beg to differ. if the rich folks can afford to send their kids on their own income, that would free up taxpayer's money i.e scholarships for those who are both deserving and in need. doesn't that create a larger talent pool that can crusade for singaporean economic prosperity and hence greater good of the general populace?

furthermore, consider the neopotism that is quietly rampant. LKY can afford to send his kids abroad on his earnings as PM so why does hisen loong and hisen yang, and now even his grandson hongyi -PM's son- have to use taxpayer's money to pay for their overseas education? its like saying that the Bush daughters are going to college on financial aid now tell me how ridiculous that is.

the issue is not a matter of elite schools because every nation has it, even quasi-communist ones. china has Peking university 'bei da'; the UK has Oxbridge and America has its Ivy League. i went to elite schools - namely Chinese High and Raffles JC - and i can assure you that WeeShuMin who is embarassingly my direct junior and her clones are not the norm. in fact they are usually unpopular. we had a similar fella called daniel lim whose mother was/is? the MP of Boon Lay. during an interview at RJC which was aired on national radio, she was bombarded by controvesial questions which she could only attempt to circumvent. The main 'culprits' who were very bright ordinary singaporeans, one was even an indian immigrant, later went on to become deserving scholars in all senses even need. My close friends and I are ordinary Singaporeans, some slightly well off than others, but we possess none of her snobbery. Filled with hope, ambition and idealism maybe, but also aware of the suffering of others. and yes we're not geniuses we work hard, some harder than others, some hardly bothered, and complain about MOE. The only places we exhibit signs of arrogance are on the playing fields. And that is not a God given right but a right earned through blood and sweat.

personally i'd rather be blogging about RHCP's awesome song 'Apache Rose Peacock' from their 1991 album 'Blood sugar sex magik' but i guess i needed to rant. MAKE ANTHONY KIEDIS, JOHN FRUSCINATE AND FLEA MM, SM AND PM RESPECTIVELY - WE'LL HAVE GOOD MUSIC DRUGS ALCOHOL AND SEX EVERDAY. haha that was retarded. as for me, i'm proud of where i'm from and the friends i made. i'm neither a rich kid whose parents are paying a few hundred grand for an American education nor a spender of taxpayer's money but i am going abroad, funded by the nice alumni at my American college. I earned it not just by academic merit but also by the financial profile forms i had to fill out. And because i detest Singaporean systems so much i'll probably just stay in New York to write a rags to riches, well not quite, more like addidas to armani if you get what i mean, story -that i'm due a slice considering how hard life kicked me in the balls- which i'll return at a later date to share with friends and family as a pseudo foreign executive.

BENEDICT LIM IS DA MOST COMPASSIONATE SOUL. A TRUE-ER THAN TRUE FRIEND. UNLIKE WEESHUMI, WHOSE REPUTATION IS WORSE THAN LIANNE NGOI'S, YOU DESERVE WHARTON. ALL HAIL BINNY. SINGAPORE'S BORAT. HE GO TO AMERICA FOR CULTURAL LEARNINGS MAKE BENEFIT GLORIUS NATION OF SINGAPORE.

WEE SHU MIN SCANDAL

stuck up lil arrrogant bitch. makes me ashamed for the first time to call myself a raffles humans scholar. you might be right, but unspoken truths are unspoken for a reason. besides you lack empathy, compassion n sensitivity. oh and you're childish. not to mention passe - bitch communism's so yesterday. -do the ditzy paris hilton tone- however i thank you...

here's why:

conversation with tzing



actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:13:03 PM)
hmm well i'd imagine. now we are eclipsed! she is the worst of the a01a, not us!
haha the millions of white slips cannot hold a candle to this.

[junren] Apache Rose Peacock says: (8:14:11 PM)
YES NOW WE ARE NOT THE WORST

[junren] Apache Rose Peacock says: (8:15:21 PM)
for all the short skirts, pon class, long/guai lan hair, lousy grades she still kicks our ass.

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:17:34 PM)
who had guai lan hair?

[junren] Apache Rose Peacock says: (8:17:49 PM)
ME

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:17:59 PM)
oh er really ah

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:18:02 PM)
i dont remember leh

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:18:07 PM)
it must not have been that guai lan

[junren] Apache Rose Peacock says: (8:18:45 PM)
haf haf...mohawk..n weiming's very long hair

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:20:14 PM)
oh yah wm's ah beng hair

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:20:19 PM)
you had a mohawk?!

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:20:24 PM)
a MOHAWK?!

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:20:32 PM)
why do i have absolutely no recollection of this!

[junren] Apache Rose Peacock says: (8:20:48 PM)
bad memory tsk

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:22:56 PM)
hrm okay lah

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:23:13 PM)
at least you dont publicly blog your neo-nazi views!

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:23:24 PM)
despite your pseudo poser punk ass mohawk!

actually, I don't really know where I'm going with this says: (8:23:34 PM)
we should all pat ourselfves on our backs


Otherside

'I heard your voice through a photograph
I thought it up and brought up the past
Once you’ve gone you can never go back
I’ve got to take it on the otherside'

kiedis is reminded of slovak by a photograph, and hreminiscenceses bout the past: when they were kids, making music, taking drugs and slovak's eventual death from heroin overdose. slovak's gone and he can't come back, the only way kiedis can meet him is when he crosses to the Otherside.

i suddenly remember the night and morning after effects of 20 piece nuggets at KAP last year. queer thought.

When to descend to amend for a friend
All the channels that have broken down

Now you bring it up
I'm gonna ring it up
Just to hear you sing it out

Step from the road to the sea to the sky
And I do believe what we rely on

When I lay it on
Come get to play it on
All my life to sacrifice

Hey oh listen what I say oh
I got your
Hey oh listen what I say oh


The more I see the less I know
The more I like to let it go…hey oh
Wooooaaah

Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it’s so white as snow

Privately divided by a world so undecided
And there’s nowhere to go

In between the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it’s so white as snow

Running through the field where all my tracks will
Be concealed and there's nowhere to go

yaxin kenny dies all the time if you want to be him....WELL

Scar tissue that I wish you saw
Sarcastic mister know it all
Close your eyes and Ill kiss you cause
With the birds Ill share
With the birds Ill share
This lonely view
With the birds Ill share
This lonely view...

thanks binny for the book. HAPPY NOW? The Bear and the Dragon is awesome btw. spooks, geology, organized crime,trade wars, real wars, domestic politics, sex and religion all rolled into one.
been wanting to post this for a while. fuck stephen hunt and Reading. go back to the championship where you scum belong. there are certain limits one does not cross.

i hate youtube. bastards removed all their SouthPark videos.

Eric Cartman Rox

I CAN BE ERIC CARTMAN.

blue skies this morning. finally.

very happy yesterday cause binny brought me lunch. an unsung hero i am in debted to.

in a nutshell - greater flexibility is the first signs of its vindication as my subconcious mind carries out the necessary extensive repairs. been feeling aches in my limbs and bouts of surging bioelectricity kinda akin to the noise and other pollution from construction - my body being the worksite.

i promised i'll definitely get up fellas - its a promise i'll never break. question is merely when. as gn says, its ord time stop chao keng-ing and pretending. GET UP. nude bitches erh sorry meant beaches of mykonos awaits us.

now time for more violent childish South Park.

james bond obesession. playlist runs, shirley bassey - diamonds are forever, moonraker, goldfinger..sheryl crow tmr never dies tina turner golden eye etc. thanks gillian for the dvds, weixuan for strudel, mag n duck for coming by. feeling good. my bold roll of the dice is starting to pay divdvendends. pray God vindicate my decision.

been thinking of travelling the former austro-hungarian empire too - vienna budapest prague belgrade sarajevo adriatic coast of croatia rome florence milan venice. maybe Monte Carlo too - bond inspired. and of course havana, cuba but we'll save that for college where i'll have convenient illegal access from the US

Diamonds are forever,
They are all I need to please me,
They can stimulate and tease me,
They won't leave in the night,
I've no fear that they might desert me.
Diamonds are forever,
Hold one up and then caress it,
Touch it, stroke it and undress it,
I can see ev'ry part,
Nothing hides in the heart to hurt me.
I don't need love,
For what good will love do me?
Diamonds never lie to me,
For when love's gone,
They'll lustre on.
Diamonds are forever,
Sparkling round my little finger.
Unlike men, the diamonds linger;
Men are mere mortals who
Are not worth going to your grave for.
I don't need love,
For what good will love do me?
Diamonds never lie to me,
For when love's gone,
They'll lustre on.
Diamonds are forever, forever, forever.
Diamonds are forever, forever, forever.
Forever and ever.

and yes sheryl you're right. tomorrow never dies.

it is certain that through the days and months that have come to past, a certain psychological dislocation has occured, shaping convictions, attitudes, goals and desires. conventions of youthful machinations no logner apply. indeed much of what was deemed as a 'problem' and petulant desires are now microscopic when one is embattled in bitter struggles uncommon to one's age, let alone a struggle between life and death. God made this world fair. headstarts in life bestowed by parents or governments will sooner or later be withered away through fruitless endeavours, incompetence or the a competitor's harnessing of sheer talent and opportunities bestowed by the invisible hand of God - fate who itself ensures equality in more complex ways sometimes inconcievable in a life time. do not envy, do not be smug, aspire but do not covet. who you are and what you do determines what you will become. in the transcience of time and space till judgement, God's checks and balances will ensure all is fair - that is an eternal and universal truth. it iis not a matter of religion for religion is a mere series of doctrines and dogma designed and manipulated by man whenever his interest deems it necessary. allexist. all are right. none is better than the other. religion divides only the universality of spirituality unites.

Made a brave decision today. Pray it pays dividends. so help me God.

People dont know about the things I say or do
They dont understand about the shit that Ive been through
Its been so long since Ive been home
Ive been gone Ive been gone for way to long
Maybe I forgot all the things Id miss
Oh somehow I know theres more to life then this
I said it too many times and I still stand firm
You get what you put in, and people get what deserve
Still I aint seen mine no I aint seen mine
Ive been givin just aint been gettin Ive been walkin back that line
So I think ill keep on walkin with my head held high
Ill keep movin on and only God knows why
Only god..
Only god..
Only God knows why
Only God knows...why why why why only God knows why